Cannot Remember

I cannot remember myself, sometimes I look at the man in the mirror, not familiar any more. This man, has been laughing without constrains and spreading tears onto the ground, has been betrayed by his closed friend, and understand what “real contempt” is. This man, is smoothing his sword, and is hoping that he still remembers it; this man, is getting known some trial things, from what they call “transfer learning”, and is always fight inside his heart. This man, has so many dreams, and also know that only dream is daydream. Can this man stand up?! And let you know who he is, let you see his true character, though still in low standing. You can say millions of time that you are nothing but ton of shit, you are losing face to everybody, while inside you know that you are the most valuable and strongest one, if you want.

You can do anything, and it’s time.

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过去吧

今天,是心里特别难受的一天。

我是失去交流的能力了吗,我希望我还是一个靠谱的人。

我需要写字,但是已经几乎没有一个地方能让我写自己的心情了,希望这里还是。

我也希望能有人理解一下,可是没有,而我深知无法苛求。

文字愈发黑暗,没办法不使用种种隐喻,但在她眼里,看不到我的需要,而是不舒服,所有都不舒服。我一个人发牢骚,我不想让人看到,除了能懂的人,却没有一个理解的人。 在她眼里,写好的,是自我炫耀显得自己牛叉,写不好的,是故意把自己写得很落魄,字里行间都是让人不舒服的情绪。

哪怕是对最亲的人,都不要把自己的情绪显露出去,带一辈子面具生活吧,做一辈子的铁面人。没有人愿意做垃圾桶,工作上生活上的不顺心有谁会懂,或者说,想去懂,也许只有真正喜欢你的人才愿意去探求你的人生,而我,真的找到对的人了吗?春风得意时,你是淡定;身处低谷时,你是颓废;我一辈子也忘不掉这句话。伤害人哪里需要用什么脏字。

失望到了极限,也就淡然了。

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meeting, getting CCR working, need to read lab_repo

Get CCR running in the early morning.

check out David fast kmeans and random forest

 

 

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“godel-escher-bach”

Do not have time to read the whole book, but I  think I do need to watch the video and related pdf at least, it’s kind of urgent reading material considering my confusion in “uncertainty”.

http://ocw.mit.edu/high-school/courses/godel-escher-bach/video-lectures/

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R_repo establish

Sometimes it’s easier to crash on something that you know you need to do or spend time on, while you cannot remember it when you have spare time or mood. R_repo is such a repository that contains random ideas, medias, sites, todos, etc that I need to archive.

Record should be date and topic based and completion notice should be added.

 

 

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记录

从DC回来,过了3天,心收得慢,想在短期内恢复正常的生活,独自安下心来。

早上给家里打电话,意识到这一年都没有好好照顾家里,繁忙总是懒惰的借口,这一点,一定要改。除了懒懒的学习以及生活,整个人总是围绕两个人转,以至忽视了家人,也忽视了自己。关于专业,自信了一点;而对于个人的掌控,更自信些才好,扬志和陈伟都是学习的榜样,甚至王翔宇都有我学习的地方。

用几天时间好好想一想,好好收收心,也许真的应该像带一个队伍,不要反而被车与旅行拖下前行的步伐。

多话时间在自己身上,打工终究是打工,在自己身上投入才是正道,prioritize everything,实验室应打工的地方,家里给自己的idea留有空间,旅途是应是开放与自省的。整个世界,既是田野地,也是训练场。

Ubuntu要好好掌握,Python要好好掌握,作为一个vision人应有的专业也必须掌握,然而,人生是我的人生。

 

 

 

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some paper

A primal-dual algorithm for group sparse regularization with overlapping groups

 

Object decoding with attention in inferior temporal cortex

 

A Performance Evaluation of Local Descriptors

 

Understanding and evaluating blind deconvolution algorithms

Modeling Search for People in 900 Scenes: A combined source model of eye guidance

Estimating perception of scene layout properties from global image features

Analyzing human feature learning as nonparametric Bayesian inference

A Global Geometric Framework
for Nonlinear Dimensionality
Reduction

What makes an image memorable?

Pictorial Structures Revisited: People Detection and Articulated Pose Estimation

Understanding and evaluating blind deconvolution algorithms

Perception of Face Parts and Face Configurations: An fMRI Study

From primal templates to invariant recognition(good)

 

Segmenting and Recognizing Human Action using Low-level Video Features

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